Thursday, July 30, 2009


Ok, so i am alive.
I am kickin'
and real life has me too busy to be postin' here much at all. I guess you may have noticed that much on your own.

just wanted to say hi...and that perhaps once school starts back, i'll be around here more. Being a full time cruise director is well....a full time job, so no blogs here.


Friday, July 3, 2009

my name is holly....


my name is Holly

i weight 235 pounds and i don't quite know how that happened.

obviously i should exercise and quit eating.

but i am addicted to food.

it is my comfort.

it is where i turn to make me feel better.

i've been in therapy for it.

it helped for a while, but i've gone "off the wagon" so to speak

today...i am taking my kids to the zoo. It's over 90 degrees here. and humid.
i am wearing jeans because none of my shorts fit me.
I thought i could wear a knit pair, but they looked like i should be at walmart shopping, not at the zoo with my kids.

that depressed me.
even though i knew it before i even put them on.

I am eating berries and breakfast.
having a pity party.

just needed to vent.

hope you are well.