Thursday, March 24, 2011


Ok, so i don't know what's up with my blog....but Reflexive left me a comment, it was emailed to me...only its not here! wth? then all the blogs i was following...are not showing up!

sheesh. blogger must hate me!

well, If there was any doubt as to why i am feeling like a big fat cow, its all the sweets i am consuming!!! I really noticed it once i started writing things down! YIKES! Ice cream is my biggest problem...that and if i get too hungry, i will eat anything i can easily get into my mouth!!!
Easter candy isn't helping either. I have a big weakness for peanutbutter and chocolate! that's everywhere this time of year! I am hoping that i can have a 'normal' week next week and start doing some exercising!
I am looking forward to a nice day at home with hub tomorrow....he's off work and the kids will be at school! yippee!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Welcome back

Well here we go again! maybe....
If you're still out there..holler so i know you're around!
I am alive and well. Being 'back' here makes me wonder how all the long lost blogger peeps are. I'll never know I guess. That's the good/bad thing about blogging. It's anonymous and it isn't. You feel like it is, but then people find out and you get "busted" and have to leave the blogsphere and I never know what happened to ya! The blogs come down and you go on with your REAL LIFE and I always wonder what the heck happened to you! Maybe that's why I never have taken my blog down. I like to humor myself into thinking someone out there wonders on occasion what's happened to Holly and how she's doing. I wonder about Sage, and Coquette and others. I still pop in on occasion and check out some of you just to make sure you're still kicking {I promise I do!}
Well I think i might start this blog back up simply because I need a place to be "me" and I am not ready to air my dirty laundry and most secret feelings to the REAL WORLD yet.
So here's the catch up.....
I am blessed beyond measure to have the most amazing husband in the world. Do we still have problems, heck yes! {who doesn't?} He has been to hell, through it, and back with me and because of me. Yet, miraculously he is still by my side and still loves me! I have two healthy, amazing children who love me. I have a close group of good friends and family who love me. I have the BEST, best friend in all the world. She knows my dark side and loves me anyway. She's even brave enough to tell me when i am being an idiot! When i am mad and upset with my amazing hub, she even reminds me why I love him and why he is the most amazing man and that no one else in the whole world would put up with me and my crap! That right there is a good friend my peeps!
I don't know if you're new here or are perhaps someone who's an "old" reader who's wandered by because you thought you'd check in...but I would like to say "welcome" to my little space in the blogsphere. Sometimes it's dark here, and it is whiney and sometimes it's just me droning on to hear myself think. On occasion it might be a little bit sexy, perhaps inspiring or it just may suck. I don't know yet. I just know that today i wanted to start a blog about where I am now and where i want to be and i figured this space was as good as any! If you are looking for a little recap this is the best i can offer you.
So as i have said before in this blog, I struggle with weight issues. I am now probablly heavier than i was when i wrote that post, but I am scared to hop on the scales to find out. I have been inspired recently by some blogs by other fat girls or previously fat girls and at the age of 37, {really when did i get so old?} I have decided to do something about it again! Hopefully this time for good! My cousin is getting married in about 2 months and my family is going to see the Mouse in Florida at Christmas and I want to feel better before either of those things happen. I just went away with my girlfriends and bought new athletic shoes and sports bras...really, what am i waiting for?
Here are my immediate goals:
1. Cut myself down to 3 diet sodas a day {trust me i am currently consuming MUCH more}
2. Drink more {any?} water!
3. Keep a daily food log of WHAT and WHEN I am eating!
That's it....that's all I am going to do this week! small steps! they add up! Stating it off tomorrow! wish me luck and check back for my progress!