Thursday, February 19, 2009

is this the end?

Maybe.


i love you all. i love blogging and i love the flirting and attention. i love reading about you and hearing your tales.

however, i have to step away.
Being here is not helping the reality of my marriage.
Being here is not helping me want sex any less, which is what i have to do now. I have to do what is best for him and for our marriage. I have to find the path that leads back to where i was three years ago. Mostly sexless.

I think that is the only way i can survive. Wanting things i cannot have hurts too much. hoping things will change is insanity. I am sure i'll be back but i dont know how or when.

take care and i wish you all the happiness and great sex in the world!

xoxo
holly

15 comments:

Shad said...

I really hope it doesn't have to be this way, but if it does work out that way. Just know I'll miss ya. I have really enjoyed the journey as I followed along each day.

Take care and may all your dreams come true!

Mike said...

Oh Holly,
yes you are right, but it will be such a shame if you do decide to stop blogging, but i do understand.


Be good and may YOUR dreams come true.


Shout when ever you feel the need to do so ;)

Ms. Inconspicuous said...

You too!? Geeze.

I understand both the desire and the need to stop.

Good luck in finding those things you both desire and need outside of blogging.

Nolens Volens said...

So sorry that you need to go. Hope you'll come back. Been fun reading your blog.

13messages said...

I wish you happiness.

Autumn said...

i really have enjoyed getting to know you over the past 3 months and i certainly will miss you. it's so important to do exactly what's best for you. i hope that it works out and makes you all the happier, but i also hope you'll be around again sometime. take care. (((hugs)))

My expressions LIVE said...

Best of luck...wish you did not have to go!

Hubman said...

Well, if blogging is taking away from 'real' life stuff, it certainly seems to be the right decision.

But why should you have to want sex less? Just sayin'...

Take care. I'll miss you if this really is good-bye. [Though I will remember to let you know if I ever find myself in your neck of the woods!]

Andy said...

Sorry to hear this, Holly. But you need to do what is best for you and those you love. Best wishes. I've enjoyed reading your blog.

Rebecca Lynn said...

Um you can't stop, you still have some Days of Love to do! :)

~c said...

i wish you love Holly.. i'm gonna miss you and your marks!..

Hugsssss,
~c

Southern Sage said...

Good JuJu Sunshine.
I hope it all works out.

ReflexVE said...

What the heck?

Holly Golightly said...

guys....its not forever. check back.

xoxo
holly

Mike said...

Phew i`m so glad and i will keep checking back ;)

xx